Happy Anniversary,Baby!

One year ago today I married my best friend.
Those are words that I seriously never thought I would say. Never cared to even say the word marriage. But, now I cannot imagine doing it any different.

When I look back at the last four years, I see so many things I do not stop to look at very often. Alot of things I wish I had done differently. Some things I wish I had never done at all. But, then I think of all the good things...and it makes it all worth it. Every.last.minute...worth it.

Happy anniversary, Mark.
You have made such a difference in my life, in everything that I do. You are the most amazing man. The very best husband, and the absolute best father. You have made it alright for me to let my walls down, deal with the ghosts and the demons of the past. I am able to be myself, which is something I was always scared to do. When I am with you, I feel truly loved, which is something I have either never felt, or never allowed myself to feel. I am not alone anymore.

You have taught me that you have to take chances, and that it is ok to trust, because it won't always get you hurt. You have taught me that you really can laugh even when your sad, cry even when your happy, and most of all you have taught me to love with everything I have even when I am scared. I can never fully show you what that has meant to me, except to tell you that I feel so lucky to have found you, and cannot wait to spend the rest of our lives together.

I know that sometimes I am really hard to live with, (yes, I said "sometimes"...hush!), and that I am always a hard ass, but this hard ass loves you more today than ever.

Thank you for being you. Anything less would be a disappointment.
With all my love,always
Jill